You guys, I’ve been through some hard shit in
my life. But by far the most terrifying thing has been the looming unknown that
comes after College Graduation. High School Graduation is nothing. Congrats, you’ve just
rid yourself of 12 long years of D-bags and ridicule. And the idea of going to college is the most exciting thing in the
world. It’s supposed to be this gray period between childhood and adulthood in
which you prepare for life as a real person while simultaneously having the
best years of your life. Well, personally I didn’t have that experience in
college. Did I prepare to be a real person? Maybe. Did I have the best years of
my life? Not exactly. And maybe that was my own fault; I opted to commute instead of live on campus. But regardless, now what?
Your entire life they tell you to
go to college to get a better education so you can make more money. Then as
soon as we get to college in 2008, all hell brakes loose on Wall Street.
All of a sudden there isn’t a single job to be had in the country and my
minimum wage retail job was looking more longterm that I had ever wanted it to
be.
We sit in classes and learn skills
that will be wasted once we leave because we'll have to take any available job to survive and
repay the government for our outrageously expensive, ultimately useless, higher
educations. For four years I sat in a class room and ignored reality. Now I’m
staring it in the face.
I’m going to graduate from
college in two months. Two months. One hundred and twenty credits, eight
semesters, four years; it sounds like a long time. In high school it was
forever. In college it’s, “Holy effing Christ. When did that happen?!” That’s
how fast life happens when you realize you’re not a child anymore. And I know I'm no longer a child because I have no idea what comes next. Decisions get harder once you no longer have the education system guiding you. Maybe that is why some people choose to become professional students. I however, have no desire to stay in school any longer than necessary so I must figure out what, in fact, it is that comes next.
And for now, I guess it's blogging.
P.S. I promise I won't bitch about my life in ever post.
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Some times all you can do is decide "what comes next" for now. Then once you have that first step you can decide what you really want which may or may not be what you thought you would do. But you are right about time going by quickly and believe me it just goes by faster after graduation. As long as you keep your mind open to the possibilities they will be there, it just may take some time. Positive thoughts never hurt.
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